Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Simple


"MY PURPOSE IS NOT TO ROLL AROUND THE FLOOR AND SPEW PROFOUND NONSENSE ABOUT HOW LIFE IS SO AWFUL, MY PURPOSE IS TO FIGURE OUT WHY, ON MY OWN TERMS, AND NOT BE AFRAID TO LET IT CONSUME ME..."

When the world seems to be doing nothing, I figure this all out. And my inspiration comes, unannounced, through the most infinitely fascinating and random events. Today I discovered that I am unhappy not with the world or the people in it, but with myself because I have not yet chosen to be captivated by my reality; happy with my life, and thrilled to be so impossibly wrong for it.

Monday, April 13, 2009

The World's Most Pressing Problem: An Assignment

The Beauty Behind Ignorance:
The False Search for Peace and Acceptance.
It's common to hear most people say that our societies' biggest problem is the lack of "peace," and the unwavering plague of "racism." Few seem to put focus on the root of the thing that make this "life," ridiculously terrifying and complicated. All the things that symbolize peace and acceptance within a "civilization" are limited within themselves because they are merely symbols, not actual realities. The root that cause the opposite of peace, and acceptance, is an epidemic, a disease, passed on from generation to generation, mistaken for "innocence," or excused as "crucial part" of being "human."Ignorance reigns within the very inner workings of our very existence. Yet we do nothing. And even considering that perhaps there is no way to find the cure for ignorance, is devastating.
We Are Damaged. Ignorance has a more than monumental effect on the lives that we lead. It is the foundation of all that is appalling, unjust, and close-minded within us. It creates a rigid perspective, war, racism, lies, homophobia, cruelty/hate crimes, and egos that do nothing but deconstruct minds. It creates disorder. Of the worst kind...

War is an effect of this disease, and maybe a little testosterone. And for a nonexistent entity of bravery and false belief in union within a government people die in terrible ways and we call it "collateral damage," with an undeserved sense of pride and sick accomplishment. We harm others, those who do not share our philosophies, and their land, and we call it a "security measure." We fuse all perspectives to create one "absolute truth and reason," hate those who challenge its values and we call it Religion. We rob and destroy beautiful resources, leave our people to suffer and settle into selfishness and greed, and call it "democracy!"
Racism is an effect of this disease. We raise and lower ourselves based on our appearance. We claim rights and liberty without understanding them. And we damage the view of others. We raise ourselves and call it god-given right. We lower ourselves and others based on history and stereotypes and call it the human condition. We excuse our rights and wrongs and call it "justice."
There is an endless amount of effects that Ignorance has on our culture.
Our stubborn inability to accept we can be wrong makes us small. Our desperate want to believe we do not live in blindness goes so deep that we become close-minded. It's jaw-dropping how we deny ourselves time to rationalize. We learn little and understand even less in ourselves and others. We are alone and we realize it. We hate each other because we cannot help one another, and we become self-destructive because we don't want to help ourselves. We hide inside ourselves because we feel helpless and we shut all the windows of intellect and compassion; running on immediate emotional response.
Thus we play god and write books on how we're right and there's no other "way," and shove away those who want their own. And contrasting thoughts that should be heard are ignored, and we are embarrassed and offended by the stitches of history that prove we've been wrong, such as a swastika, and to be one's true self is no longer courage but deception. This ignorance is passed on and it stains everything.
People seem to look the other way when someone brave enough pleads for our awareness of this darkness we have created within our wonderful system. The only peace we truly ever manage to accomplish is when we turn off the television and drown ourselves in drugs and alcohol, abuse, or mere silence, fear to speak up! But we all know we will not ever forget those images of mangled bodies and war machines. And to pretend it will all get "better," we force pills down our throats to try to get some sleep.
The only acceptance we ever manage to accomplish is when we lie to ourselves and each other in order to think "it's all supposed to be this way" and that even if we were to try, there would be nothing we could do to change our atrocious, and oh-so-common state.
We are small, but we have the power to be strong. Yet strength is not the first step. The first step is wanting it, true rapture in freedom. The fervor to fall after we have tried our little heart out leads to the greatest of fortunes: the ability to conquer. But everyone is blind. Even I, as I type this down and it all makes so much sense that it's mentally dizzying, I have too been blinded by ginorance. We're all so lost.
We've lowered the standards behind being "human," so deeply that things like terror, and unfairness have all been confirmed as "adequate." and we say things like "Oh well, that's just life," and continue with the destitute vision of the burden of ignorance that has become expected of us, of others. Common Disease. Like a cold, or a fever.
And there's the bitter realization: Our so-called Freedom, is brought by selective ignorance. An ignorance that will ultimately be...our downfall.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Artcore

FINALLY
Well finally. I've been wanting this for a while. And it is most definitely worth every penny of the $432.99. It's this strange inspiration, I think - something so beautiful that it makes YOU want to do something amazing and beautiful at the world, like music. Music's never been my forte. I've never even wanted it to be, honestly. I've always been the a consumer of the music, not a producer. I've always been okay with that but for some reason I've recently become increasingly inspired by music and the possibility that maybe I can create something unforgettable. Basically, I wanted to say, to those whom I do not need to mention, that I feel incredibly lucky to have you within my realm of reality. We WILL make great music together, I promise. At least you have to know I will try. I love you. See you soon. It's almost here...

It is cruel, you know, that music should be so beautiful. It has the beauty of loneliness of pain: of strength and freedom. The beauty of disappointment and never-satisfied love. The cruel beauty of nature and everlasting beauty of monotony.

-Benjamin Britten

The Observer

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I am not an artist. I am a curious observer. With the willingness to document my findings and my theories. Nothing less and nothing, but striving to be, more.